New Car

That's right. I finally got a new car. I picked up a Hyundai Elantra 5 door this week. It's in a very nice black color with a beige interior. It has almost all options to it. I am so excited to finally have a new car. Anyone that wants a ride in it let me know. Have to give props to dad though for cosigning with me so that the payments and interest would be much better. Also everyone needs to go check out the site Flymolo.net It's the great site of one of my best friends. It will provide worlds of entertainment and also water cooler topics. So share it will everone.

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Guess Who's Back

Now I know I have been saying this a lot in my last posts but this time its true. Life is a very funny thing you know. One day things are crazy go nuts and then the next day you are talking about ju-ju. Have no idea what i'm talking about? Then you haven't been keeping up with my life. It's crazy like that. More on this Christian ju-ju though. What is it you may ask. The answer is, I really don't know. I think it comes to the point of Christians trying to make the world perfect and happy not matter the circumstance. I'll elobrate more later. Just a quick thought for now.


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Where I've Been

Well then were to begin. Life has been crazy this last month. Lots of changes that not I'm not sure how to really take. Some days I feel like life sucks. Others it still feels good. Details well those are mine. If you want to know, ask. Most likely I'll tell. But I'm not the type of person to publish my life in the open for unknowns to read. I'm moving. Not to Portland but to my own apartment. So at this point I have an open invitation to any friend who wants to come to chicago to come and have a place to stay. I have the best friend in the world here. One thing I ask of my friends is for support and prayers. I do need them. My life is in my Fathers hands.

Poem

Feel
I have become broken
By words that have been spoken
Where do I go from here
The road ahead is laid with fear
Every breath brings pain
Oh Lord, please keep me sane
I feel so lost
Is it all worth this cost
Do you understand how I feel
It is hard to believe this is real
My strength is gone
I do not know where I belong
Should I just give in
I now know I can never win
I feel it is more than I can bear
Go ahead everyone, just stop and stare

Sadness

I guess it's time to update. Was back in Portland just recently to see my sister graduate from MBC. Great time. Lots of family and friends that I got to see. Got back to Chicago from the trip and Kari broke up with me that night. It's been really rough. I don't think I ever been through something so painful in my life. I haven't been able to eat and sleep has not been very restful. I don't know what God has in store but I really hope I find out soon. I have options for a job back in Portland and all my family and friends. But I am finding it very hard to let go and say that I need to come back. Any advice or suggestions would be greatly appreciated.

Reviews

Time to catch up on what i've seen and my thoughts on them.

Finish watching the episodes of Veronica Mars that Kari and I had DVRed. Love the series. Always keeps me guessing and great character development.

Saw Walk the Line. Loved it. I knew Cash had some struggles in his career. I never imaged that he went through anything like that though. Kinda tempted to go pick up one of his albums now.

Got done reading a book called "Michael Moore is a Big Fat Stupid White Man" . What a great book. I knew I didn't like the guy but this book really reinforced that gave me so many new reasons. It really appears that the guy has a problem telling the truth about anything.

Picked up a book to read for the plane ride to Portland. "Why my Wife Thinks I'm an Idiot: The Lifes and Times of a Sportscaster Dad" . It's written by Mike Greenberg who is apart of ESPNRadio's morning show of "Mike & Mike in the Morning". Great show. Very funny and great sports talk.

Thats about it for now. I'll try to post while in Portland if I can but no promises. I'll be there in 3 days for anyone that wants to try and see me.

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Birthday

That's right. I just had one on Friday. Turned 26. Yeah I guess. Kari gave me the greatest gift ever. I got an IPOD from her. How freakin awesome is that. I LOVE HER! She also got me 2 of the books from the Ender's series. Got some good reading ahead of me. Kari's parent got me 2 pairs of dress pants and a dress shirt. Not to shabby at all.

Saw the movie The Family Stone this week. Not exactly what I thought it would be. Previews made it seem like a comedy but it was much more of a drama. Now don't get me wrong it has some very funny parts to it but it also deals with some huge issues. I enjoyed it. It also reinforced that fact that I think Rachel McAdams is a great actress and one of my favorites.

I'll be coming to Portland in about 8 days. Can't hardly believe its time for my sister to be graduating from MBC. Time sure flies. I can't to be there and would love to try to get together with as many of you as possible. Let me know.

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yea for comebacks

Well if you haven't heard, the Smashing Pumpkins have gotten back together and are currently working on a new album. I am thrilled by the news and look forward to it. On other fronts, the Cubs are playing better then expected with the injuries they have been dealt so far.

Speaking of comebacks, I will be in Portland in about 17 days and am looking forward to the time off and catching with people.

Other band news- I do believe that Dream Theater is slowing chipping away at the top spot for my favorite band that MxPx has held for the longest of times. Now don't get me wrong I still love MxPx and throughly enjoy their music but I continue to be amazed and blown away by Dream Theater. Thanks to Eli and Adam for introducing me to them.

Work, well what can I really say about it. The transition of the company from Chase to Protective is proceding. Do I know for sure that I have a job still. Not really. Does that bother me some. Yes and no. While I do really want to know whats going to happen a part of me is ok with whatever happens will and that is up to God and not me. I personally think I'd really like to find a new position within Chase as I really enjoy the company and what they offer. But I guess I'll continue to play the waiting game for now.

Watched the Chronicles of Narina again the other night and again was amazed about how well the did the story instead of butchering it which they could have easily done. Lets hope the do the rest as well.

Kinda of a long post so I wrap it for now.

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News

Sad news here if you want to read.

Something of a more positive note. Cubs even though they lost today are still playing quite well this season so far. Fantasy Baseball is proving to be enjoyable as ever. But the best is still to come this summer. And of course I'm refering to the WORLD CUP! Can it get any better. With all the games in Europe it is really going to mess up my sleeping schedule.

Until later.

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NewsFlash

Well would you look at that. Cubs are 3-1. That is a great way to start the season off. More news for those of you that didn't know I'll be in Portland from May 16 thru May May 23. My sister will be graduating from MBC. I would love to get together with a lot of you but it will take some fun scheduling. Please let me know as soon as possible if you are interested in meeting up so that I can plan accordingly. That's all for now.

TV

American Idol has been good this year. I think that Chris is my favorite. I started to watch the show House and am enjoying it. There is always the good Law and Order SVU, CSI and Without a Trace. Other shows that have caught my eye this year include One Tree Hill, Gilmore Girls, Veronica Mars, Desperate Housewives and Extreme Homemaker. By far though my favorite show is Grey's Anatomy. I can not get enough of that show. One of the best one's to come along in a while in my opinion.

Cubs

That's right everyone. The Cubs are 1-0. Isn't that great. (I had to brag about it while I can cuz Lord knows things can go downhill quickly.)

I'm Back

That's right folks. After a long absence I have returned. Hopefully this blog will return to the glory it once posessed but only time will tell.